AM I AFRAID TO FALL IN LOVE? OR AM I COLD HEARTED?

THERE IS THIS GUY & I LIKE HIM, MUCHO MUCH.. HE TELLS ME HOW HE FEELS & HE IS READY TO BE WITH ME, BUT YET I PUSH HIM AWAY... I DONT UNDERSTAND MYSELD, I MEAN MY HEART WAS BROKEN WHEN I WAS IN THE 7TH GRADE BUT IM SO OVER THAT BUT I DID MAKE A PROMISE I WOULD NEVER LIKE/LOVE AS HARD AGAIN. I FEEL LIKE LOVE IS FOR SUCKERS BECAUSE NOTHING LAST FOREVER , WELL NOT FOR ME. BACK TO THE TOPIC.. IM PUSHING HIM AWAY BECAUSE MY FEELINGS ARE STARTING TO BECOME STRONG ... WHAT SHOULD I DO? ANY ADVICE..